Wednesday, February 15, 2012

didn't mean to worry you guys!

Gosh - I'm SO sorry if I'm making you guys worry. For reals. I've been wanting to write about what it's like to be an 'emotional eater' for some time now, and considering I was stressed out on Saturday I thought it would be the perfect time since I could totally identify my 'triggers'. 

So again, I apologize for causing any unnecessary drama. For reals! Totally not my intention. 

But Jess - I will take you up on that phone call - we haven't chatted in forever!!!

Sunday, February 12, 2012

humor me, and play along for a sec ...

Okay, so I want you to imagine that you just got news that you find to be completely devastating. For reals - whatever YOU would personally find to be horrible news to hear. And I want you to feel those emotions. The fear. The uncertainty of what you're next step will be. The sadness. The shedding of tears, the anger. That ache in your stomach that just makes your whole body feel nauseous. Truly try and put yourself 'there'. 

Now I want you to think about what you would do to help calm you down. Is it talking to a certain friend or family member? Is it going for a run? Having a drink? Taking a nap? Seriously - what steps do you take to calm yourself down? Really identify what it is that helps you. And over the next few days ... weeks, if you start to feel stressed again, what do you do to combat those feelings? Again ... really try to identify that. 

Got it figured it out? 

Now imagine whatever it is that you use to calm yourself down and bring you back to reality is completely taken away. You CANNOT use that method to help you. So in the middle of your 'crisis' you not only have to figure out how to handle that, but you have to find new ways to cope. And if you complain about it or use those methods anyway, people will say, 'c'mon, don't give into that. you don't need that to cope. seriously. don't be so weak.'

Can you guess where I'm going with this? 

I'm just trying to paint the picture of what it's like when you're an emotional eater (like myself). For whatever reason, some of us are prone to use food as a coping mechanism. And yes, there are MUCH better methods out there, but when you're 'used' to using a certain one time and time again, it's hard to all of the sudden make a switch - especially in the middle of a stressful situation. And it's not like you can really 'roll play' it, because in the middle of a 'crisis' you have no idea what you're going to be feeling, or how you're going to react. 

Now, I don't want to panic anyone. I'm not having a huge crisis; my family is healthy, there is nothing going on that will kill us or leave us destitute. But I am facing some challenges that I find to be kind of overwhelming. But I'll get through it. And I'm really going to try and not use food as my 'method' or try and 'justify' bad choices because of what I'm going through. That being said, I made some bad choices today (haha) and I probably will in the future. So I guess I'm just hoping for some understanding. My relationship/dependency on food is already hard for me. And honestly, added stress is going to make it even more difficult. But I'm working on trying to combat it. I really am. But it's going to be hard. And I guess I just wanted to be honest about it. 

rough day

Today was bad. Seriously got thrown a wrench that hit me over and over and over in the head. Or at least it felt like it. So I allowed myself to be upset for awhile and then sat down and tried to come up with a game plan. I guess life is like that some times. 

So I'm still feeling a bit blah and I'm headed to bed. Hope you all have a good weekend. 

Friday, February 10, 2012


Apparently I skipped a post again.

Anyway - I've been getting our tax stuff together (which takes me a long time since I'm not that organized with all that ... surprise, surprise ...) and I have our appointment in the morning ... which also happens to the be the same time that I'm supposed to take the oldest child to a birthday party ... and the husband will be at work. Thankfully my sitter was available and she'll be helping me out. Oh - and did I mention that the husband is sick? 

Yeah ... it's a bit chaotic in our house right now. 

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

uhhh ...

... didn't make it to the grocery store. I thought we would but some stuff came up this afternoon so I couldn't go when I originally thought, so we were going to go in the evening but that ended up not working out either. So the husband is going in the morning while I take the kids to the Park with my Mom. 

And just so you know, when I talk about going to the grocery story - it's usually to load up on meat. HA! But like Leah suggested, I'll take a photo so you can see what it is I load up on. 

Okay - off to bed!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

it rained today ...

... so I didn't get to the grocery store.

But I'm FOR SURE going tomorrow. For realsies. I promise.


Another Late Night

I stayed up late again working on some editing. I had a Family Session this afternoon so I didn't make it to the grocery store. But I'm shooting for tomorrow .. oh wait .. it's supposed to rain ... well ... I figure something out. 

Anyway - I gotta get to bed. The kids got up way too early this morning, so I'm hoping that there will NOT be a repeat of it again tomorrow!

Monday, February 6, 2012

okay ... so that was weird

I could have sworn I came on here last night and posted. In fact, I really thought I had made my rounds of updating all the stuff I needed to and finished early last night. Apparently I totally skipped this place. My bad. 

So the NY Giants did well, the husband is stoked, and with that, Super Bowl is officially over. Which means its now time to get back to my Primal living. I can't wait. I'm so bloated right now it's not even funny. Plus, I weighed myself and I'm back up to where I started. 

Anyway - I gotta get to the grocery store tomorrow ... time to restock and get this week started off right. 

Hope you all had a good weekend!

Saturday, February 4, 2012

new plan

Just so you know, the husband's 'team' is the NY Giants. So the Superbowl is going to be a pretty serious game in our house. So that means we're getting food. Good food. Well, good food as in 'bad' food. But you know what I mean. 

After that, the husband said he wants to go strictly Primal again. He's hating the way he feels (as do I) so it's nice that we're both on the same page again.

I know I say that I'm 'back on it' time and time again ... and yes, it seems as though I fail. But I'll continue to try, because that has to be a bit better than just totally giving up, right? 

So there you go. That's the new plan. Wish me luck.

Friday, February 3, 2012

Another Late Night

Another quick update. The husband fell asleep on the couch and I just finished editing the photos from today. The family session I did is actually for my daughter's pre-school teacher, so I was trying to get everything done so she can take it tomorrow to school with her. 

So off to bed I go. I got another session in the morning again. So good night!

Thursday, February 2, 2012


Was working on a project and totally lost track of time. I GOT to get to bed as I'm doing a photo session in the morning. 

Sorry to be so abrupt! But good-night for now!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Shaking It Off

That's what you're supposed to do with bad days, right? I think I'm pretty much done with the shaking and just needing to get to the 'refocusing' part.

I closed my Online Shop tonight. I just can't have that as a distraction while I concentrate on some other stuff. I'm sure I'll reopen at some point, but until then, I gots other stuff to do. 

Alright, well, off to bed I go.