not sweatin' it

It was my weigh-in day. Honestly, I expected to gain weight. It was just one of those weeks. Still feel somewhat dependent on sugar, but my food consumption is WAY down. And the weirdest thing ever is that I seriously do NOT crave carbs! I met up with some friends for brunch on the weekend and I thought for sure my body would do crazy things when I had a bit of carbs (I had a small piece of french toast and a small piece of a grilled cheese eggs benedict ... and it was awesome ... but I was SUPER okay with my small pieces). The restaurant we went to had a 'family style' food. So obviously I had to taste everything.

OH, and get this! I bought a 'mamba' (10 points if you know what that is) and I opened it and gave some to my daughter and I ate one. ONE. And it was WAY.TOO.SWEET. So I didn't eat any more of it. I had no desire to. It's the weirdest thing ever.

And I'm pretty sure that the last time I went 'Primal' I lasted 3 weeks. But I was way stricter. I hit the 3 week mark today and I have no plans of quitting. I think the whole 'baby step' method I'm doing is actually working. The fact that even with a few 'discretions', I didn't gain weight - well I see that as a good thing.

So this week I'm not foreseeing any more brunches and I'm still focusing on cutting back on the sugar thing. But I'm off of soda, I don't miss it, and I'm pretty much off of carbs too. Oh, and legumes. I'm off of those, but I was never really into them to begin with. 

Sugar

This week I was supposed to get off of sugar. But I gotta admit. It's actually really hard. I'm doing well with everything else ... but sugar just has a hold on me. And the bummer thing, is that I think my sugar consumption is going to stall the weight loss.

I will say, it's really odd to not crave carbs. Like I can look at bread, and pasta and crackers and cookies and not be tempted at all. In a weird way, I almost fear them ... like I kinda think that if I have some of those carbs, that I'll crave them and then I'll be back to where I was in the beginning. So it's just better to stay away, right?

Anyway ... nothing else to really report ... but just figured I'd document my Sugar cravings. Hopefully I'll be able to look back (in the not too distant future) and think its funny that I was having a hard time ... as by then I'll have kicked the habit. 

Okay, off to bed. Oh - and my weigh-ins are on Tuesdays now.

Holla!

I think its time to resurrect the blog. I literally just decided this a few minutes ago, and was totally stoked that I actually remembered the pass-word to log back in.

I have no idea if anyone will read this (since I've been gone for almost a year), but I'm honestly not writing it for other people. This time, it's just for me. Sure, I welcome anyone who wants to follow along to do so, but this time around, I'm just doing this whole thing how I want to do it. I'm not going to try and please other people, but just focus on my own journey. I promise that I don't mean to sound like a jerk, but it's just a realization that I've come to over the past 10-11 months since I've been gone.

And speaking of the past 10-11 months ... gosh. So much has happened.

Now that it seems so far in the past, I'll share a bit of what happened right before I left. We got hit with an enormous and completely unexpected tax bill. Like it drained our entire adoption fund and I was left to try and scramble to find the money to bring our son home. It seemed impossible. I was completely overwhelmed. And honestly, it completely consumed me. But everything worked out in the end, we brought our youngest son home in early June, and I also started a new photography business. So I think it's fair to say that we've been busy. 

But life has fallen into a comfortable routine and our youngest one has transitioned beautifully. The husband and I were talking about how we wanted to get back on Primal train ... so January 1st, we did.

Of course things were harder for me (as they always seem to be), but I'm okay with it. I've decided to slowly transition to Primal this time around because:

A) I do NOT have time to get 'carb flu' (from lack of carbs)
B) If I go cold turkey - I'll probably cheat more

So Week 1 resulted me in only losing .5lbs. BUT - the good news is that I'm completely off of soda. Not only have I kicked the Diet Pepsi/Coke habit, but I'm completely off of caffeine all together. The weird thing, is that it was WAY easier than I expected. It was like I just woke up one morning and was like, 'I'm quitting'. And that's exactly what happened.

The second week, I lost 2.5lbs (and that brings us up to date currently). I did this by cutting out the carbs. That first week I ate a lot of rice (I know, not surprising!). But this week I've really pulled back. I think I've had a small bit of rice once or twice, but I'm basically off of that too. Since it was gradual, I'm feeling good and I haven't gone through any withdrawls.

This week I need to focus on pulling back on my sugar intake. This is mainly in the form of fruit and dark chocolate. I've kind of let myself use it as my 'vice' as I was quitting all the other stuff. But now it's time to get that under control.

So there you have it. That's where I'm at. And honestly, I'm feeling really good about it! But don't worry - it won't be going to my head any time soon, as the husband has already lost 8lbs these first two weeks. Men ... ugh.