NYE

Can you believe 2011 is actually OVER?! What in the world?! It's gone by so fast. But honestly, I think life has gone by super fast in general the past few years. It seems like the older I get, the faster life moves ...  but anyway ...

If you're in the FB Weight Loss group - please fill out the documents so we can get started!

Hope you all have a fun & safe New Years Eve!!!

Okay ... the group is made

So here's the dealio:

I made the group. It's ready to go. I've also decided that I'm only going to accept members until December 31st. Just so we all have a starting point for one of the things I want us to do (but who am I kidding. If someone wants to join after that date, you are more than welcome to!).

On FB, my name is Rachel Orr Lesiw. Send me a message so I know your full name, and I'll add you to the group. 

See you there! (and by the way - I'm SUPER excited about this!!!)

Are You Being Serious?

Okay - so if you guys are being serious, I'll start a private FB group for Weight Loss. This is how it'll work. It'll be private. So that means NO ONE will know that you're in the group besides the ones that are already in there. It will NOT show up in your FB feed, so you don't have to worry about that either. 

I'll still be posting on my blog here (since I made this a commitment that I want to follow through on) but we can have more 'interaction' in the group. Do fun stuff each day ... activities ... check ins ... I think it'll be easier to be an 'active' participant. 

I'm not against the group I originally joined, but if any of you guys will join this one, then I'll quit the other one. It's SUPER huge. For reals. I kinda already feel lost and I don't know anyone else in the group. So it would be nice to have some 'friends' while I'm at it. 

So who's in? Let me know in the comments (you don't have to leave your full name, but just say if you're in so I kind of have an idea of who wants to join). Also - you HAVE to have a FB account for this, or it won't work. 

I'll make the group tomorrow, and then post tomorrow night when you can start being added. And just so you know, even if you haven't commented on here before .. or maybe you have once ... or maybe I don't even know you read this blog (which I know there are a ton more people who read than comment) but that doesn't matter. I want you to join. For reals. There's strength in numbers. And honestly, I need all the help I can get. It's nice knowing that I'm not doing this alone. 

OH yeah, and most importantly - we will NOT be posting actual weight. I'm not looking for humiliation, but I'll have other things we can do that will still show we're committed. 

Sound good? Who's in?

New Faces

So I joined a secret Weight Loss FB group. I can't tell you what it's called because I actually had to post my height/weight which as you all know, I.DON'T.DO.THAT. (them ladies in that group are hard core!) Anyway, I think there are a couple of 'spill overs' from the group - so if you see an unfamiliar face, that's how they found us. 

Anyway ... I'm still getting mentally prepared for January. I'm looking to make quite a few changes in my life, so hopefully it'll all come together for me. 

Anyway, I'm headed to bed. See you all tomorrow. 

nothing interesting to add ...

... hope you all are having a good day!

Another Christmas has come and gone

We stayed home and had a VERY relaxing day. So that was really fun. Just one more week to get pumped up for the New Year and all that I need to accomplish. I'm excited. I really am. 

Did you all have a great Christmas?

I ate so bad tonight ...

... and I loved every minute of it. 

Happy Christmas Eve everyone!

it's 1am

... and I just finished editing the session I did today. It was SOOOO incredibly fun and the couple is SOOOO super cute and fun and nice, so they made my job really easy. I don't think it's possible to make them look bad. So while I did see improvements in some of my photos, there are some other things that I'm seeing I really need to work on now. So that's encouraging too. I'm seeing progress, and that has to count for something, right? 

Anyway, here's a sneak peek of what I was able to capture today. 

Oh - and just so you know ... one of the things I need to work on, is what people are doing with their hands AT ALL TIMES. In the second photo - I noticed what I'm calling 'dead hand'. My friend had her hand resting between her and her fiance's leg ... in the shadows ... I didn't notice it when I was taking their picture ... but it's REALLY obvious to me now. So note to self: no more 'dead hand'. 

so excited

Tomorrow I have my first engagement photo session. I am SO excited! The couple is cute beyond words and I've totally mapped out some poses I want to try. Seriously, I'm SUPER excited. 

Oh - and I'm super glad that I'm starting back up again in January ... because mentally, I really need to get prepared! HA! But for reals ... I really do need to get mentally prepared. That's not just half the battle for me ... it's more like 80%.

The Plan

Okay ... so I think I have a general plan ... and I'm just going to tell you the 'work out' parts. 

On M/W/F (when the husband 'opens'), I'll go to the gym before I take the daughter to school in the morning (which isn't until 11am). 

On T/TH (when the husband 'closes'), I'll go to the gym in the evening. 

I'm going to go back to the Primal stuff and I'm just going to take a casual walk for an hour. This is NOT supposed to be high intensity. But because of that, I'm really hoping to get to the gym 5 days a week. In  my  mind, this should work. I usually schedule Dr Appts on T/Th since the daughter doesn't have school on those days .. and I try and do them in the mornings ... so again, that shouldn't 'throw' my schedule off since I'll be at the gym later in the day. Also, by going to the gym in the mornings on the days the Husband 'opens', it leaves the rest of the evening open to spend with him. So again ... no excuses. 

I do have to adjust my bedtime. No more can I have these 1-2am nights. I need to go to bed at midnight. Which this then limits my 'work time'. I need to do one last big SALE in my shop to try and get some funds in. That's slated for January (the actual date not yet determined). And then maybe I can do another big order with my one big account since I have so much left over from my failure craft fairs. The key will be to make it manageable. 

But I did decide that my 'health' will be first priority (when ranked against 'work'). I know I will see results when I start following the plan, so I just gotta get started ... but all the Holiday 'goodies' make it so tough ... 

... thank goodness January is almost here.

scheduling

I decided that I need to make a schedule of how a typical week will look for me. I want to make sure I set aside some time to go to the gym, and I also bought a food menu calendar thingy, which I hope to start using as well. 

So tomorrow that will be one of my goals. MAP OUT THE WEEK. 

I went grocery shopping today and stocked up on some good stuff. I also made the mistake of letting myself think that I would start January 1st ... which is bad, because now I mentally let myself indulge in things I probably shouldn't. Probably? Who am I kidding. I should NOT be eating some of the stuff I do .. but it's the holidays. And I really do love sugar cookies. 

Well ... it's all about baby steps, right? I'll check in tomorrow night with my new schedule. That's the plan, and I'm sticking to it!

New Week

I've been thinking a lot about the New Year's Resolutions I want to make .. I love doing it. I think it's super fun. So you'll probably hear a lot about them in the next few days.


But now I have to get to bed. I got a lot to accomplish this week ... and hopefully it'll all get done!

nothing new or exciting

I cleaned out the Playroom, cleaned out the kids closets and did some laundry. Pretty busy day. It's amazing what you can get done when the kiddos are gone. 

But I pick them up tomorrow and believe it or not, I'm actually really looking forward to it. The husband even said last night that he missed them (I know, so cute, right?)

So with that, I'm headed to bed. 

Christmas Came Early

Tonight we did an 'early' Christmas with my parents since they will be out of town this year. We had a great time, and as an added bonus, they took the kids to their house for the weekend. Whoo-hoo!

And on top of that, the husband and I went to Target and completed all the Christmas shopping for the kiddos. That felt pretty good. So I guess I'm all set. Well ... I still have to wrap everything ... oh - and we picked up the Christmas Cards and they're not THAT bad. They're not super great, but definitely not bad. 

Looks like things are starting to pick up!

just ordered really lame Christmas cards

I had our family pictures done back on November 12th so that I could get a jump on doing my Christmas cards. Well ... the photos arrived later than I expected and the only one I liked was of my parents. Took the kids out a couple of times to try and redo their pictures and I still didn't end up with anything I thought would make that 'perfect card' I was envisioning. 

I just spent a few HOURS trying to get a card made with the photos I had available (which I ended up trying to use 3 different photos then what I previous thought I'd use) because I had a discount code for the website. Once I FINALLY finished, I enter my code, and it doesn't work. It expired. 

Are you kidding me?

So I ended up just going to Walgreens.com and used a photo from one of the previous shoots and called it a day. What a complete waste of time. 

Seriously ... what is going on with this MONTH for me? It's so ridiculous that I almost find it funny. Keyword being 'almost'.

ugh

... I'm having major issues with my work stuff. I'm trying to do a little sale on FB and PayPal is making it really difficult ... as is my website. Kinda makes you wonder if you're just supposed to quit. 

*BIG sigh*

Its just been one of those days. 

yeah ... totally forgot last night.

I realized at some point today that I forgot to write last night. But it was a busy night (I was totally engrossed in a new book I got) and then this morning I had to get the kids to the doctor. So it just completely slipped my mind. 

Anyway, nothing too new. Having some issues with my website and that's frustrating ... and still kinda thinking about what my next 'business move' is going to be.

So I'm sorry this is kinda boring ... but that's just where I am right now. 

New Week

Okay - so it's a new week. I have a few things on the Calendar, but nothing too major. So that means I can get onto my next project ... which is purging the house ... and my office. Time to start getting rid of stuff! I'm really looking forward to this part as it's been a long time coming. 

And after we drop off the eldest child at pre-school, the younger one and I will be headed to the grocery store to get stocked up for the week. I really need to get back to being Primal. I miss it. I need to toughen up and not be so wussy around desserts and just practice some self-control. 

So here's to new week ... and getting back on track!

seriously?

You're never going to guess what happened ... 

There was a 'miscommunication' of sorts, and when I arrived at the Craft Fair ... they thought I wasn't coming, so they had given my space away. 

I know. Good times. 

So .... I'm headed to bed. It's been a long day.

interesting ...

You know, I thought this week was going to be 'easy' for me ... meaning, not busy. But quite the opposite has happened. Seriously ... it's been a bit crazy. 

Tomorrow I have one last Craft Fair. I know. I said I wasn't going to do any more but I had committed to this one a while ago. Plus, I have zero expectations on making money. Really ... it's more of an excuse to go meet up with one of my girlfriends who lives in that area (since she's going to stop by and see me). 

So with that, I'm headed to bed as I have to get up early tomorrow. 

G'night!

another disappointment

So my daughter had her first Christmas program for pre-school today and I while she looked incredibly adorable and sang SUPER well ... they had ZERO lights on during the performance except for one on stage. NO ONE could see their kid and I couldn't get ONE photo. I was SO annoyed. 

Man ... I'm just having zero luck lately!

today went by fast

... seriously. Like I can't believe how quickly it went ... 

So I guess I'm just going to head to bed. See you all tomorrow. 

where has the time gone?

It's crazy to me how quickly time is passing. It's now Wednesday. What in the world. The week is now half over. 

Anyway, nothing too excited to say - I have a bunch of stuff I need to take care of (scheduling things, etc) so I should get going. It's nice to not be busy doing my fabric stuff ... but I'm still busy doing other things. But I welcome the change. 

So with that I'm headed to bed. Got lots to do tomorrow.  G'night!

moving on

So while the Craft Fair was a dud ... the good news is that I don't have a ton on my plate now, so I can focus on other things. I need to do some sales to get some cash flowage coming in, but other than that ... I have some free time (although during this 'free time' I need to gut my house and completely re-organize and purge everything). I also have some more 'volunteer' photo sessions to do, so that's a welcome change to all the work stuff I've been doing. 

Also ... I want/need to get back to the gym. I think I'm going to take a few days to just decompress, and then it's back to it! January is approaching, which means 2012 is just around the corner ... which means a trip to Korea is hopefully in the plan as well! So it's time to get this weight-loss thing in motion. It's time to quit wasting time ... as I seem to have been doing. 

So with that, I'm headed to bed.

finally finished

It's over. THANK GOODNESS. But I'm SOOOO incredibly tired. So I'm headed to bed. My throat is feeling a bit scratchy still ... so I'm hoping I'm not coming down with something ... 

Anyway, goodnight - I'll see you guys tomorrow. 

no better

Yeah ... so today wasn't that much better ... just longer. Nothing like sitting for 10 hours at a dud of a craft show. But what ever. 

Fortunately tomorrow is MUCH shorter. I'll have time to come home, re-shoot some product and put it online. Oh well. Nothing like a 'challenge' to get the ole brain pumpin' with new ideas. 

I'm super tired, so I'm off to bed early. G'night!

wow. that was totally disappointing.

So the Craft Fair tonight was a total bust. For reals. It was so bad, we could do nothing but laugh about it. We have to report our sales total each day and I'm seriously considering writing 'this is not a joke' with an arrow pointing to my total.

Tonight pretty much confirmed that my product is not suited for craft fairs. Online sales and Children's Boutiques - yes ... craft fairs - a bit fat no. 

So with that, I'll be taking my tired self to bed as I have to leave at 8am for another 10 hours of Craft Fair fun. And just for the record ... this was not one of my best birthdays ever ... but we can't win them all, right?! (hahahahaha!)

it's 4am

... and I'm just now going to bed.

Wish me luck as my Craft Fair starts in 13 hours.

just a short break

So ... I get to take a break until 1am, and then I'm headed back to work. Thursday is my last 'full day' before the craft show and I have a LENGTHY list of what I need to accomplish. It will totally be a challenge since my daughter got a fever tonight (will this EVER end?!) and my sitter who was going to watch the kiddos for a couple of hours while I work got SUPER sick ... so I'm running solo ... and the husband is working late ... so ... yeah ... it'll be a crazy circus.

Wish me luck!

I really tried ...

... to get to the gym for a weigh-in this morning, but it just didn't work out. I had to get the boy to his doctor's appointment in the morning and it just didn't make sense to take 20 minutes out of our morning for me to run to the gym and weigh in. We then decided to 'all' go to the doctor appointment together (and swing by the gym where I could just run in real quick) but somehow time slipped by too quickly and we couldn't manage that either. Which honestly, I'm a bit disappointed as I KNOW I lost some weight this week! I guess that's one good thing about getting HF&M ... I couldn't eat as much!

This weekend is my big craft fair, and since I lost a few days of not being able to work due to my hands hurting, I have a ton of ground to make up. So things will be very 'light' here until this weekend passes. Then I can really get back down to business ... as I don't have anything really major planned afterwards. 

Well, I'm off to bed, so I can get up and start sewing immediately.

How Did You Know?

For realsies ... how did you guys know it was HAND, FOOT & MOUTH DISEASE?!?!?! I actually saw my nurse practitioner (I actually love her by the way) and she ruled out Strep just to be sure (but she said she didn't think I had that) and told me I was 'text book' Hand, Foot & Mouth disease. 

The only thing that could have horrified me more, would have been if those blister thingys would have sprung up all around my mouth. I think I would have completely freaked out.

I told her that I was the ONLY adult I've ever known who has gotten this. She said she see's it all the time. But I'm not entirely sure if I believe her ... maybe she was just trying to make me feel better. 

So for those of you who were wondering my exact symptoms, here's the progression:

1) BAD headache

2) fever

3) flu like symptoms, but you're not exactly sure

4) a couple of days later you break out in the small blisters 

5) feels like 'pins & needles'

I guess once you get the blisters, the virus is working it's way out. And yes, there's nothing you can take but tylenol & advil. 

Now, my daughter had the same symptoms a day ahead of me, but she never had any blisters - which the nurse practitioner said that is very common. So maybe she had it? Maybe my son did earlier in the week but he didn't get the blisters either ... and there's also a 2 week incubation period ... so I'm hoping that everyone stays clear of it the next couple of weeks ... because I do NOT wish this on anyone. 

Anyway - I'm impressed with all your diagnosis skills. Never once did Hand, Foot & Mouth disease cross my mind ... some unrecognizable nerve & skin disorder did .... but not the former. Go figure. 

Feeling Better ... but Getting Worse

I'm telling you - crazy things are going on with me. Now I'm getting these little 'blister' like things on my hands. But only on the tips of some of my fingers ... not on the palms, not on top ... and they hurt ... kinda like pins & needles ... I've NEVER had anything like this before. And I REALLY need my hands. I still have a ton of work I need to get done before my craft fair this coming weekend ... so can you guys pray that I can get in with my doctor tomorrow? He's really hard to get into last minute, but I really need to figure out what's going on. 

Man ... I really want to get back to my 'old self'. For reals. 

Feeling Better!

So last night I got a decent night's sleep. I SO needed that! I woke up, realized that I had actually been able to sleep, and walked downstairs with a smile on my face. And then I found out it was 10:45a. Oh well, the husband had everything under control, so it was all good. 

My Mom had saved some 'Thanksgiving Dinner' for us, so we had that for dinner tonight. It's the first meal I've had in quite some time. And it tasted really good! But believe it or not, my appetite isn't really back (which I don't think is necessarily a bad thing). 

So while I didn't need to take a nap today, my throat is still really bothering me. I couldn't drink any orange juice  because it actually burned when going down. But at least I can breathe. So I guess I'll just take what I can, right?

Still Sick

Seriously, mornings are SO rough for me. My throat is at it's worst and I still had chills ... it didn't help that my son had a case of diarrhea last night. It was craziness. 

Anyway, here's to hoping I'm miraculously healed in the morning. 

Good night!

Good News: I didn't over eat today

Bad News: it was due to the fact that I woke up super sick 

I don't know what hit me, but it hit me hard and fast. Last night I kinda had a headache and I felt like I was kinda cold when I went to bed. Well ... that headache persisted throughout the night and so did the chills. I woke up with a bad sore throat, my body hurt and ached, my head was pounding and I pretty much felt like I got ran over by a truck.

Today I've been drinking a ton of fluids, I took long naps at three different times, and my Thanksgiving Meal was Chicken Noodle Soup. The husband has been SO SUPER FANTASTIC in helping out with the kids (and me!). Did I mention that my daughter was also sick last night and today? I think I may have gotten what she had, and if that's the case, then I should be feeling much better tomorrow, as she vastly improved today.

So with that, I think it's time to get some more sleep. 

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Hope you all have a 

Super Happy Thanksgiving! 

Here's to eating a ton of mashed potatoes and pumpkin pie

(those are my favorites)

and as a little fyi ...

... the bff made BIG MONEY this week. 

$50 to be exact. She rocked it.

I forgot

... seriously. I forgot to go to the gym today to weigh-in. I had a bunch of things I had to get done this morning and then the next thing I know it's time to take the boy to his doctor appointment ... at 2:30 in the afternoon.

Well ... I guess I'm still stuck at $2. But hopefully it's big money next week!

a bit better

Sorry these are so short, but I've been so busy and of course I have a ton more to do. Today was a bit better, but the problem is that I need to get to the store and re-stock our frig with Primal stuff. If I don't, then that's when the bad choices start happening. 

Anyway, not sure if I can get to the store tomorrow .. but maybe . We'll see how it goes. The boy has his hearing test tomorrow ... he has fluid in his ears and so we need to see if he is experiencing any hearing loss that is effecting his speech (he's a bit delayed). I'm not worried, but I am interested in seeing the results. 

So that's what I'm up to tomorrow ... how about you guys? Anything fun planned tomorrow?

well ...

... let's just say that 'better choices' will be made tomorrow.

And with that - good night!

totally not Primal

I went to my friend Jineau's house for dinner tonight and for all of you who 'know' her from her comments here, I just want to share that she is the most AMAZING cook EVER! Or maybe I should be calling her a Chef ... I don't know, but what I do know is that her meals are to DIE FOR! And tonight's was no exception. Sure ... it may not have been Primal, but there was a delicious stuffed tenderloin and veggies ... well ... maybe it was Primal ... although there was some cream and butter ... and caramel and apple cake and vanilla bean ice cream (and how could I not mention the most amazing gravy ever! Like I actually told her it was LIFE CHANGING).

But I sooooo don't mind taking a short hiatus for the night as I absolutely adore my Jineau. For reals. She's super great, and so is her husband and the same goes for her daughter. Every time we part after hanging out, I always feel so happy and blessed to call her my friend. 

Thanks again for a great night Jineau! You really are the best!!!

almost forgot ...

... so this will be quick. I need to get some sleep! Today was decent. But I did have a piece of Pumpkin Cheesecake at my daughter's 'Thanksgiving Feast' at school. It was SO good. But for lunch I had a huge salad... so in my mind I'm telling myself that it 'evened out'. 

Okay - off to bed. Anyone have any fun weekend plans?

$30

I got a text from the BFF today which informed me that she's down 3 lbs already. That's 30 bucks. That's awesome. Me ... I'm still at $2. What in the world. I'm getting schooled! But the good news is that I didn't eat very much today because my stomach hurt from something I ate last night. Not sure what it was, but it definitely made me want to NOT eat today. 

Um ... Stacy Francis just sang HORRIBLY on XFactor ... her and Astro (I'm watching the DVR'd version) ... um... they BOTH should have gone home.

Anyway - here's to a good tomorrow! I gotta earn me some cash!

Not Totally Bad

So today wasn't totally bad .. not totally great, but not that bad either. I need to go through the house and get rid of some stuff. This time of year is so hard ... so many DELICIOUS things I want to eat ... oh well. If I can make it through this Season, then I can make it through ANY season, right?!

Off Topic - is anyone watching XFactor? If so, who do you like?

.2 lbs

That's what I lost this morning. I almost laughed out loud. For reals. But I'll take it! My old trainer happened to be at the desk next to the scale and I wouldn't let him watch me as I weighed myself. But you know what I realized? I'm only off of my 'lowest documented weight this year' by 2 lbs ... actually, just under 2 lbs. Which isn't that bad. If I actually tried this week I could be at my lowest weight EVER next week. Let's see what happens. 

I had a little conversation with the BFF today. She's starting a 90 day weight-loss program and she's going to email me every day for accountability on it. We decided that in 90 days we'll do something to celebrate. We always talk about how we want to spend the night at a hotel and watch movies and eat food (I know, I should scrap the food eating bit ... ) so that's going to be our 'prize'. I also decided that she has to go shopping with me when it's time to go to Korea (which will be longer than 90 days, but I'm reserving the right to make her do it now, as she hates shopping). I knew of some people who as a goal for weight-loss put a dollar amount to each pound they lost ... to be used for shopping. It was a hefty price tag ... $10 PER POUND. But guess what? I'm going to do it too! Granted, I haven't told the husband yet and I probably won't follow through on it, but it's super fun to think of the hypothetical pot-of-cash I could have at the end of 90 days. 

So as of right now - I got $2 to spend on clothes for Korea. Pretty awesome, don't ya think?

check it

dude. I'm SO going to be in bed WAY before midnight tonight! I'm super tired and we're just finishing up watching The Sing Off and then we're going to bed. Pretty amazing if you ask me! I can't remember the last time this happened! So I'm stoked. 

I was good today. I got all my errands done and had a super healthy lunch. Dinner wasn't horrible but I did have a few snacks. But I'm looking forward to tomorrow ... it's another day and I'm still going to wake up thinking 'I can DO this!'

How's the week starting out for all you guys? 

Alright ...

... not the best week. I think I'm getting sick too. You know when you go to bed and you feel your throat start to get all itchy and you feel like it's super dry, but if you start coughing you think you might not be able to stop? And then when you wake up in the morning you feel like you got ran over by a truck?

Yeah ... that's kinda where I'm at. I feel better as the day goes on, but then I start to go back down hill as evening comes. But hopefully it was just my body thinking it was in 'weekend mode' and will get back in gear in the morning. 

My plan (besides completing all the work stuff I need to do) is to go grocery shopping in the morning and stock up for the week. Not taking the time to get myself prepared is a HUGE downfall for me. So I'm out to start the week off right! Wish me luck. I think may need it.

Pictures Done

But I know I'm not going to like them. I'm sure the kiddos will look super cute, but I HATED the ones I saw of myself. Ugh. I'm just so disappointed with myself. Did you know that it has been officially ONE YEAR since I started this blog? ONE YEAR. I'm down somewhere between 5-10 lbs from where I started. Pathetic really. But I guess it's fitting that I'm starting 'over' again. 

Anyway, enough grumbling and complaining. 

Here's a little sneak peek from the photo shoot today. I was trying to get some photos of my son so I could send them to his Foster Mom ... but it wasn't easy to get shots, so I quit trying.  When I get the real photos, I'll be sure to post some more. 

Busy Weekend

Tomorrow we have our family Holiday photos taken. I hate having my picture taken and it completely stresses me out. I do like the outfits that I picked out for everyone, but of course, I hate mine. It'll 'work', but it's not what I would WANT to wear if I could pick out anything. 

I guess it's just another reminder that I need to get focused. Things like this always come up and it kinda leaves me feeling a bit deflated. The process is hard for me and I find it totally frustrating. Ah well ... such is life I guess.  

Here's to hoping the rain stops so we don't have to stand in mud.

Busy Weekend

So sorry that I forgot to update last night. I feel like I have so much going on in my brain right now and I'm just trying to get it all sorted out. I have the chance to send a care package with a friend who is going to Korea soon, so I'm quickly trying to get stuff together for not just one child, but for my other son's Foster Mom as well.  I REALLY need to get some updated photos together for her.

So that, work, we have our family Christmas photos on Saturday ... I'm gone almost all day tomorrow ... still got orders ... yeah. It's just a bit busy here. But I'll be fine. Just busy.

oopsies!

I started to update last night, and then I got side tracked and forgot to finish ... sorry! I'll be back later tonight.

Game On (for realsies)

So even though I TOTALLY did not feel like it, I went to the gym this morning and weighed in. I went up a couple of pounds, but I'm not sweatin' it. Also, I'm down 10lbs from where I started the whole Primal thing, so at least I didn't gain it all back. 

I also updated the weight-loss tracker on the side bar. I did 12 weeks because January actually ended on 12 weeks and I like that kind of thing. Also - I would think that by then I'd have a better idea of what's happening with the EP situation ... so I'll be able to add another general amount to my timeline. 

Anyway, I still have to work on my mind-set. I tell ya, I really do have to 'talk to myself' and get mentally prepared for this stuff. I don't know why I'm like that, but I am. Oh - and I did walk on the treadmill today while I was there. The bummer thing is that my daughter is now getting sick and I'm keeping her home from school tomorrow ... which if I do that, then I really shouldn't be putting her in the child care at the gym ... but I feel like I really need to go ... what to do, what to do. 

Alright - my bed is calling me. So I'm out. Hope you all are having a good start to your week!

And here we go!

Okay. So I'm supposed to go to the gym in the morning. That's the plan. And afterwards I'll be stopping by the Post Office to mail off a HUGE packet of paperwork ... our ACCEPTANCE PAPERWORK! I'm am SOOOOOO freaking thrilled to have that finally done! I'll be over-nighting it, so it'll arrive on Wednesday and then be mailed to Korea on Friday. One step closer. Next step - getting my Legals and filling out the i600 ... once that's done, then I literally have nothing left to do but wait. 

So here we go. A new starting point and true reminder that I'm headed to Korea soon ... let the games begin!

Getting Ready to Start

So I'm finishing up my Acceptance Paperwork and it's taking a bit more time than I thought. I HATE having to print up all the copies ... and I get totally nervous filling it all out as I usually make at least a few dumb mistakes COPYING stuff which causes me to then have to start all over. LAME!

But I'm thinking I can get it over-nighted tomorrow (Monday). Worst case scenario it'll be Tuesday - which means everything will arrive on Wednesday. They only send paperwork to Korea on Fridays, so I have plenty of time. 

Anyway, I still have a slightly feverish boy on my hands, so I'm hoping that tomorrow it'll be completely gone (so I can go to the gym). I'm thinking it may not work out that way, but what are you going to do. Tuesday I can for sure get to the gym as the husband will be home in the morning. Whoo-hoo!

So that's it for tonight. I'm off to bed ... well ... I think I'll try again on one of the forms I didn't finish filling out first ... and THEN I'll get to bed. 

Hope you all have a great week!

worst nightmare happened today

Yeah. So my daughter asked me if I had a baby in my belly. To be fair, her pre-school teacher is pregnant so they've been talking about babies ... and the way I carry my 'fat', totally makes me look pregnant. In fact, I'm actually quite self conscious when I go into baby stores shopping because I'm afraid someone is going to ask me when I'm 'due'. 

I honestly didn't freak out. And I didn't cry either. I think I kinda expected it to happen at some point. So of course I just explained to her that people come in all different shapes and sizes .. and I avoided words like 'fat' or 'over-weight'. That was mostly due to the fact that those words would 're-surface' at really awkward times ... like she'd probably see someone and be like, 'they're not having a baby, right Mommy? They're just fat, right?' And that kind of situation would be WAY more awkward that our 'I'm not having a baby' conversation.

Of course this is GREAT motivation to get back to being serious about the weight loss. So I decided to come up with a new plan. I'm going to go back to the Gym on Monday. I'm also going to delete the weight loss tracker on the right and just start over. 

That's it. Simple. A fresh start, and I gotta get moving. Now that I have a referral, going back to Korea seems WAY more real. 

ugh

So things have been super crazy with trying to get all the paperwork printed up and my youngest got some weird, random fever that has been coming and going. All of that, unfortunately, easily allows me to make bad choices with food. 

I just want to get back into my routine. Remember when I was doing so great with my eating plan ... and going to the gym? What happened? Why is it so hard for me right now?  

All I know ... is that I gotta figure out something soon. For reals.

tired

So much to do! Besides continuing to work on my projects, I got our Acceptance Paperwork today. Ugh. I forgot just how many pages and pages of stuff there are to fill out! And not only that - but you have to get them notarized too! But I'm not complaining ... I'll gladly fill it all out. Since tomorrow is Friday, I'm not going to super rush through it all. I'm just going to over-night it on Monday since it'll basically get there around the same time. All paperwork is sent to Korea on Fridays, so it'll be ready to go next week. 

It is SO crazy to be at this stage again. But I love it. I really do. 

So with that,  I'll say Good-Night to you all!

totally forgot

For realsies. I seriously forgot to weigh in on Tuesday. And now it's Thursday. Its just been that kind of week. I'm super tired, so I'm headed to bed ... but if you aren't on Facebook - we got our referral for our NEW SON! Super stoked and excited. 

But I gotta get some sleep. Hoping to get the acceptance paperwork filled out asap and mailed off. Once I"ll do, I'll post a photo. 

Good night all!

PS - I thought I would mention that my new son has an 'eye lid crease' on one eye, but not the other ... just like Dokko Jin from 'The Greatest Love'. I KNEW there was a reason we needed to watch that kdrama! HAHAHAHA!

Changes

Okay. So it's confirmed. I canceled my 'big order'. But it's not a huge loss as it'll help me be super prepared for a big craft show I'm doing in a month. It was just too over whelming for me. I totally and completely miscalculated how long it would take me to do this order. I can't believe how far off I was. And I kept having to push back the date ... and it was totally consuming my time ... and I was making poor choices in regards to my eating, exercising, and just life in general. 

Honestly - I could end up making more money at the craft fair with this inventory than originally planned. So I'm not upset about it. I just think it was a choice I had to make and I feel like a huge burden has been lifted.

So now I will continue working (as I still have a ton left to prepare for next month) but now I get to go back to the gym. I'm actually really excited about it. I can start going to bed at a decent time and just get back to a normal schedule. 

What a great way to start November!

Halloween

So it's over. Thank goodness. It wasn't as picturesque as I thought it would be. I got some cute shots this morning of the kids, but once night time fell ... so not fun. Melt down city is what we had going on. But the good news it that we gave away all the candy in the house. So at least all of that is gone. 

Also... I'm hoping to make some changes to the order I'm working on. I'm trying to confirm it tomorrow. If I succeed, I'll fill you in later. 

With that ... I'm headed to bed. 

oh - and here's one of my favorite photos I got this morning:

still tired today

I obviously did not get enough sleep last night. Today wasn't a good eating day for me. I'll just leave it at that. Tomorrow we're doing Halloween with some friends and will be having dinner at their house, so I'll be going grocery shopping Tuesday morning so I can get back on track. Honestly - being ill-prepared is definitely taking it's toll... and because I'm super busy with my order, I tend to 'comfort' myself with little treats since I'm kind of actually miserable right now. Not good ... not good. 

But it is what it is for the time being. I've identified the problem, and I'm planning on fixing it ... but I just gotta get through this project. For reals. Right now it's all consuming, but hopefully in a couple of more weeks it'll all be done.

dude. it's 2am

BREAKFAST:

coffee w/cream

LUNCH:

bibibap

DINNER:

eggs w/kielbasa

EXTRA:

diet coke

a few pieces of Halloween candy

(don't worry - Halloween is almost here and then it'll be gone)

I can't believe it's already 2am. Ridiculous. I'm off to get some sleep.

exhausted

BREAKFAST:

coffee w/creamer

LUNCH:

subway turkey sandwich

baked lays

DINNER:

Trader Joe's Shepherd's Pie

EXTRA:

Diet Coke

some Halloween Candy

a few BBQ Frito Twists

Apple w/smoked gouda

It actually sounds like more food than I ate. But what ever. I'm SO tired right now. But it was a good day productivity wise. 

Sorry this is short, but I seriously am beat right now. Hope you guys have a good weekend!

long weekend ahead

Like always, I have a long weekend ahead of me. I have some lofty goals of what I need to get accomplished in the time frame I have available to me. So wish me luck! I'm hoping to be done with my current project in less than 2 weeks. I really hope I can do it in less time, but that's my current goal. Another current goal? To make better food choices.

BREAKFAST:

coffee w/creamer

LUNCH:

4 mini pumpkin chocolate chip muffins that I threw away ...

.... in my mouth!

DINNER:

pork chop

carrots and zucchini

a few sauteed apples

EXTRA:

less than 1 Diet Pepsi

a handful of Honey BBQ Frito Twists

a couple of handfuls of random Halloween candy

another coffee w/creamer

I'm going to be honest with you. I'm planning on getting Subway tomorrow for lunch. Yes - it's bread. No, I'm not supposed to have it - but when I'm working under the conditions that I am, its super nice (and convenient) to not have to 'think' about what I need to eat. I can just get it, eat quickly and then get back to work. I don't have to spend a bunch of time boiling eggs, cooking chicken and cutting up vegetables to make a salad. Trust me, getting Subway takes WAY less time. 

But another decision I've made is that I don't think I'm going to take on these big projects anymore ... or at least I won't for a long time. It's too stressful and honestly, it's a bit hard to balance the work with everything else. It's totally time consuming - and granted, it is purely my fault as I was given plenty of time to get it done, but then I put it off thinking I had too much time, and then the kiddos got sick and ... well ... I'm left with a super stressful situation. I'm very thankful for these work opportunities as the company I partner with has been super great to me, but I think there might be better ways for me to spent my work time ... and of course, it would allow me more time to focus on my health (which is equally as important).

Well, I have a few more things I need to get done before calling it a night, so I guess I'll say good-bye for now. If you have fun plans for the weekend - let me know. That way I can live vicariously through you.

a bit better

... but not by much. I'm definitely a stress eater ... through and through. And I really wanted to get a 'cheese roll up' from Taco Bell today, but the ONLY thing that stopped me was that I was going to have to write about on here. So see ... this accountability thing is helping me! LOL But I still made some bad choices today.

BREAKFAST:

coffee w/creamer

1/2 of an apple

LUNCH:

rotisserie chicken breast (very small portion)

DINNER:

turkey burger - no bun

but I did have some fries

and a diet coke

EXTRA:

2 mini pumpkin chocolate chip muffins

some candy corn/pumpkin mix Halloween candy

Cafe Mocha Coffee (it's the keurig kind)

diet coke (but in total for the day, it was less than 1)

Oh - and because I don't have enough on my plate, in case you're not on Facebook, I started a new blog that will take the place of my old one. I just wanted to switch things up, start fresh, and have a new format. What's funny - is that I NEVER post photos of myself because I'm super self conscious about it. So I LITERALLY spent a ton of time taking self portraits on my cell phone trying to hide my double chin while NOT getting my body in the photo. I've had a ton of people comment on 'how good' I look and that they can tell I've lost a lot of weight. I felt like a total liar and deceiver because I just know what angles I need to shoot to hide the double chin. So I came clean about it. Here I was thinking that I could post a 'good' photo of me, and by making it too good, I dug myself into a hole because if people were to see me in real life they'd be like, 'oh ... she SOOOO photo-shopped that picture of her!' Which I didn't ... but I still got the same results. 

Oh well ... I guess this is just motivation to lose more weight. Oh, and if you haven't seen my new blog, you can do so by clicking HERE.

wow

I lost weight. I can't believe it.

1.4 lbs

down the drain. 

awesome.

But I'll be honest here ... I didn't try super hard. In fact ... I'm starting to let bad habits slowly creep back in. So I decided that to help keep my self accountable, I'm going to post at the end of every day, what I've eaten. So here it goes:

BREAKFAST:

coffee w/some creamer

2 small pieces of bacon

LUNCH:

Trader Joe's Bibimbap

DINNER:

rice

California Roll

Kani-Sunomo

EXTRA:

lemon cake

(2) diet pepsi

The husband is now working at a new location and there was a birthday today. So he brought in desserts (this was all pre-planned by the crew). That's why I had the cake. And yes ... you're seeing WAY too much rice. But that's the problem with not making time to properly stock your frig. You end up eating stuff that you probably shouldn't.

Anyway, here's to a better tomorrow. I mean, it can't get much worse, right?!

***PS - I had to change some of the numbers on the weight-loss tracking list because contrary to the popular stereotype, I do not excel in math or science. So some of my calculations were off. But I fixed it, and we're good to go.

great night

So a couple of my girlfriends came to the rescue  and helped me out tonight. What's fun about our 'work nights' is that we just hang out and talk and I get some extra hands to help me catch up. 

Anyway, a ton of stuff got done tonight and I am SOOOO thankful. I'm not fully caught up - but it really did help ... and the best part ... is that we're doing it again on Friday! Whoo-hoo!

Okay. I'm off to bed.

I remembered ...

... but there's not much to say. Busy night, and a super busy tomorrow. So I'm out. Hope you all had a good weekend!

wow ... I forgot again?

Thanks to a message from a friend - I was reminded that I didn't update the blog. I can't believe I forgot! Well ... I guess I kind of can. Yesterday I went to a Women's Conference at my Parent's Church and it was SOOOOO good! BUT, I had to get up hours before I normally do and I didn't sleep all that well the night before. So let's just say I was tired before the day even started. But I had a really good time and when I got home, I was still exhausted. 

But I can't believe that I forgot to post. I thought about it ... and then I must have gotten distracted. Anyway, here's the lame filler post, and I'll be back later tonight. 

Have a great Sunday!

forced break

I'm not at home this evening as I'm up at my parents house with the kiddos. So this means I can't be working, which is stressful, but at the same time it's nice to have a break. 

Anyway, I'll be checking in tomorrow night - hope you all are having a fun weekend!

another quicky

I gotta go to bed early tonight as I have MOPS in the morning and my table is in charge of breakfast ... which means I have to get there early ... with food. I'm also supplying the 'raffle prize'. So I threw some stuff together with the hopes that people like it. I also put together a small gift for my Secret Sister. I have no clue who she is, but I guess that's the point, right? She likes Sour Cherry Balls (or something like that) so I got her some of those and put them in a small glass jar. I think they look really cute ... so hopefully she will too ... and I think it goes without saying that I hope MY Secret Sister gets me something. I know, that sounds totally selfish, but I'd love to walk into the meeting and be greeted with a gift. That's just the kind of girl I am. 

Okay - over and out!

SORRY!

Totally forgot to post last night. I was working late and it completely slipped my mind. But I'll be back later tonight!

Have a great day!

funny {not really ... but it is ... but it isn't}

So I had my weigh-in today and I gained 2.6lbs. In my defense, I did eat Korean food the past two nights, I haven't been drinking water very much, I've had  a few diet sodas, and I'm on my period (sorry if that's TMI for you guys). But actually, talking about my period is kind of interesting ... why? Because I haven't had one in like forever. Since going Primal I've had two. TWO! This is kind of a big deal. So it'll be interesting to see what happens in the future. Right now it put me on about a 6 week cycle ... but I'll take it! 

Anyway, it's a new week. I got my Mini-Goal in mind. So it's game on. Let's DO IT!!!

here we go again

two things:

1) Virtual Closet - Sweater Edition

 

love that it's a cross between a sweater and a jacket

 

don't think I'd wear it like the model is ...

maybe with a white tee and some jeans?

yes ... no ... ?

 

always a fan of cardigans and black 

its like the fusion of my two favorite things. 

2) It's Weigh-In time

So tomorrow I'm supposed to weigh in again. I'm going to be honest with you and say that I WILL be gaining weight. There are a few contributing factors, but the main one is that I've been making some poor choices when it comes to eating. I haven't mentioned them, as I thought each day I would do better ... but then something would come up and well ... I'd make a poor choice. 

But this new week is a new start. I've pretty much figured out what the family will be wearing for our Christmas photos (which will be taken in 3-4 weeks) and I want to make sure we fit into everything! So I got a small goal I need to achieve!

So that's that. Bad news for tomorrow - but I hope to use that as motivation to make wiser choices, and use some self control in the coming days. I gotta get my Primal back on.

Another Week

Well, another week is starting and it's going to be a busy one. But what else is new. Sorry this is another brief one ... but we went to a friend's house for a super delicious meal and I have a bunch of things to catch up on (aka: clean the house). 

Anyway - here's to a good week for everyone!

tired again

I know ... such is the trend with me. Today we watched a parade of highschool marching bands. My daughter thoroughly enjoyed it. But it also involved us standing in the hot sun for 2 hours. Then I spent a few hours working on my next project, and then we went back to the highschool to watch some of the field show competitions. Again, my daughter was soooooo into it. And honestly - I was pretty impressed with what these kids can do!

So now I can barely keep my eyes open. Which means I'm signing off for the night. Enjoy your last day of the weekend!

the Field Trip

So our day started out with a child who got little-to-no sleep, us arriving late, and the weather being a toasty 85+ degrees out. I think this picture pretty much sums up the trip:

So while the Pumpkin Patch wasn't a total hit, it was nice to take part in a Fall-ish activity. I'm really looking forward to the weather cooling down. We had a little taste of some low temps last week, but sadly ... they've disappeared. 

But enough about that ... let's get back to Primal living. 

So here's the deal. If you've gone on the Primal website and looked around, you'll find that there isn't a 'sample menu' that you can just follow. So please keep the following in mind:

1) NO legumes

2) NO grains (pasta, rice, etc)

3) NO dairy (some will have greek yogurt, or some aged cheese - you can find a list on the website)

4) NO sugar (but you can have dark chocolate if you want - at least 70%)

Cook with butter (if you choose to do some dairy), olive oil, ghee or coconut oil. Remember that fat is your friend!

If you buy Organic/Free Range meat, then it doesn't matter what the fat percentage is (not that I would get 'full fat' or anything like that), but if you don't (which is fine), then make sure you get a low fat percentage.

Okay - so here's what I eat ... but keep in mind, I'm kind of a creature of habit. 

Breakfast: If I eat it, I'll have bacon, with 2 eggs cooked in the bacon fat. But usually, I skip breakfast

Lunch: My go-to salad has either mixed greens, or butter lettuce. I add some english cucumber, cherry tomatoes, a few black olives, 2 hard boiled eggs and some chicken breast. I toss it in a little Olive Oil and salt/pepper. It's probably one of my favorite meals. 

Dinner: Usually a meat of some sort, and then steamed vegetables that are finished off in a little melted butter and salt/pepper. (although lately, my favorite has been pork chops, with some thin apple slices finished in the butter)

I would say that on a typical day, I'll skip breakfast and eat lunch and dinner. I do have dark chocolate and when I want something sweet I'll cut up an apple and have some smoked gouda with it. The chocolate/cheese/fruit is something I need to pull back on. There are people who can eat a lot of fruit and still have weight loss. I think I fall in the 'moderate' category... with less being more for me (unfortunately).

So that's basically what I eat. If you have any questions - please ask away! I'll answer them the best I can!

sorry to do this again ...

... but I have to get going to bed. Tomorrow is a big field trip to the Pumpkin Patch. And that also means that we have to get up earlier than usual. 

So I gotta run. But I promise that the next post will be about Primal food. For reals!!!

another late night

... it seems to be the routine lately. 

So I'm tired (yet again) so this will be short. I was asked today to share what I eat on a daily basis, so I promise to get to that tomorrow. 

So until then ... what are you favorite Fall-foods? Even comfort food ... I'm curious to know!

So I was about to go to bed ...

... when I realized I hadn't posted here. 

The weigh in was decent. I lost 2.8lbs. I said I'd be happy with two pounds, but I think I secretly wanted more than that. But the good news is that I actually gained muscle mass these past couple of weeks ... so that's good. 

The kiddos are on the mend, which is SO nice. Especially since I still have a ton to do. But I called in the troops and I think I'll have some extra hands next week. SO thankful for that. 

Anyway, I can barely keep my eyes open, so I'm off to bed. Hope you all had a good day!

another weigh-in

So tomorrow is the day to weigh in again! I'm excited, but I'm not expecting big things. I'm hoping to be down 2lbs from the last time I weighed in. If that happens, I'll be super happy. Slow and steady wins the race, right? 

So as a little inspiration, here are a couple of things I found at Zara.com

for my virtual closet.

I love this dress. I love that it has long sleeves, yet it's a short dress.
and I totally love the simple shoes with it.
if my legs looked like that - I would be ALL over this.
like every day. for reals.

and since the weather is finally starting to cool down
I thought I'd show this little jacket.
I like how it looks over the skirt.

and yes, I still want my legs to look like that.

time to go eat bacon
(and I can because it's PRIMAL!!!)

Sick

Good news ...  I'm not the one sick. Bad news, it's both  my kiddos. Good news is that the youngest has stopped throwing up. And I just want it to stay that way.

Still have a ton of work to do .. you'll probably hear me complaining about it for the next few months, so I'll try to restrain myself. Having sick kiddos does put a wrench in my work schedule, but I do secretly relish the cuddle time. My son is NOT a cuddler. Actually, my daughter isn't either. But when both of them are sick, that's what they want to do all.day.long. So it's kind of nice. 

Although, if I have to watch My Little Pony/Strawberry Shortcake/Sprout TV for another minute I might just go insane. 

habits

So I'm getting back into the grove of working. I've been working on some smaller projects when I SHOULD be working on the big project. So now I've officially started it. And I have to say, it's so weird realizing what some of my habits were ... like my nightly consumption of Diet Pepsi/Coke. I used to ALWAYS have a large fountain soda to 'get me through the night'. Sometimes I'd drink it all, and sometimes, I'd barely make a dent in it. But it was a habit, a crutch, a nightly ritual. 

I went off the stuff cold turkey when I started going Primal. And it was MUCH easier than I thought it would be. Even when I've gone out to eat at a restaurant, I haven't ordered one. But I did get one last night. And it BURNED my throat as it went down. Like it seriously hurt. It's so weird to think that it NEVER bothered me in the past. So what's different? Did it actually numb my throat before? Why am I so sensitive to it now? 

Anyway, as I was working late into the evening, in my familiar setting ... the craving came back. Even though I knew the night before it was a painful experience. I thought about it for a long time, and then I eventually caved. I still have some cans of soda in the frig, so I got one. I figured it was smaller than get a fountain soda from a drive-thru. 

But I also made a deal with myself. If I took one tonight, I wasn't going to take one ever again. I just don't need it, and I can see where I'm starting to make 'allowances' with myself. So tonight was my last one in a long while. I don't need the stuff, it only bloats me, and again, it really does burn when it goes down. I didn't finish the can. I'm not sure I even got half way. But I'm glad that I can rationally make decisions regarding what I'm putting into my body. Is drinking Diet Soda the end of the world? No. I don't think so at all. But I know for me, it's something that I can become dependent on, and it's not going to help me reach my weight-loss goals. So I'm more than willing to give it up. (key word being WILLING. Before, I used to feel like it was being taking away from me against my will ... so I only wanted it more ... and justified it. I don't feel the need to do that now.)

I gotta say. This Primal thing has been the best thing for me in so many ways. I really do love it.

weird

The scale went down again. What's going on?! All I know, is I'm NOT going to complain. Sorry that this is another short post ... but a girl has got to get stuff done when she hasn't been as productive as she should have been. 

And that's where I'm at right now. 

Anyone have anything fun planned for the weekend? Me? I'll be working. 

another day ... another dollar

I'm so glad today is done. I had some major shipping to do. I started doing these 'mini-sales' on Mondays and I just got behind as I had a busier beginning of the week than I thought I would. Getting stuff ready to ship took me over TWO HOURS today. Craziness. 

I know things have been brief lately  - but there's not that much good stuff to talk about. Nothing interesting ... just me trying to get work done ... make some cash ... you know, basic stuff. 

I've gone back to eating 2 meals a day, with a light snack around 'lunch' time. It's working out well for me. Unfortunately, I still haven't made it to the gym. This morning I was all set to go, but NO JOKE, my entire house hold woke up at 9:45a. OUT.OF.CONTROL. I was supposed to be at the gym at 10am. So of course I canceled. I swear, it's the days where we think that we'll 'naturally' get up earlier that everyone sleeps late. I think the rain had something to do with it as well. There's just something about the dark skies, the sound of raining beating down that makes you just want to stay all comfy cozy under the blankets. At least that's how it works for me. 

Oh - and for dinner, I tried to make a 'basic' Pumpkin soup. It turned out AWFUL. For reals. THIS is why I don't cook very often. But I love vegetables. So does anyone have any good soup recipes they feel like sharing? I'd love to find some new ones!

check it

So today I woke up a pound lighter than my lowest weight (which my lowest weight was yesterday). So that makes me happy. 

And now ... I gotta get back to work. 

wow ... how did it get so late?

Oh man ... it's SO late right now and I'm exhausted. Long day for me, but a good day as well. 

Yes - I missed the gym, but you know what's so funny? When I weighed myself this morning I hit my lowest weight by 1/2 a pound. HAHAHA!

Oh well. 

Sorry this is short - but I REALLY have to get to bed!!!

Virtual Closet

And we're back with the Virtual Closet!

Big thanks to Anthropology for giving me free clothes

for the closet this week. 

pretty awesome of them. 

Okay - so here's a dress I LOVE!

 

I love the simplicity of it

(and the fact that it's green)

and I would pair it with these shoes

(if those shoes were black)

 

it's kind of risky to wear those shoes with a short dress

(at least I think so)

but I'm also pretending that I have fabulous legs

which allows me to get away with those shoes. 

Here's another dress I thought was fabulous

 

and I also love these shoes.

to be honest - I can't tell if the color would actually work

so again ... just pretend they do.

sorry to keep this episode of the 

Virtual Closet

so short ... but I am SO tired. 

Also - I'm not going to the gym tomorrow.

let me explain:

First ... I didn't go to the gym ONCE this past week. 

Also, I had a few 'events' that took me off of eating Primal.

Add the fact that I have SOO much to do tomorrow

(and I'm kind of not sure I can get it all done)

I just can't take out an hour and a half to go to the gym. 

After tomorrow, I'll be back to my regularly scheduled program.

So please don't think I'm slacking, or quitting, or whatever.

It's just a super busy time for me right now, 

so I decided to pick and choose my battles. 

The thing is - Primal is now a lifestyle for me. So honestly, eating a

few 'non-primal' meals doesn't freak me out. I know that I'm just 

picking up where I left off. No big deal. I'm not going to stress about it. 

I don't have anything else coming up for the month of October that can

really alter my eating plan. Granted, I will be so extremely busy with my work,

but that just causes me to get really organized with my time. 

(which I plan on doing ... which includes gym time)

But I'm looking forward to getting back to the gym. 

Seriously - looking at what my schedule will entail ...

being able to 'zone out' while on the treadmill sounds pretty darn good.